I've felt like today, my last marching band competition, should've been an almost sad one; full of tears, hugs, and other gestures of farewell. Instead, I find myself almost frighteningly stoic.
This season has been so successful on so many levels that it has completely redeemed any misgivings marching band has had in the past. We made finals
every time; I got to experience what it meant to be a senior in the band; we sounded and looked better than I can
ever remember us looking; and perhaps most of all, I think that the freshmen (mine, at least) not only enjoyed themselves, but developed into solid marchers and musicians. It's
because of these successes that I think it's almost a waste to be melancholy; I'm fine with being content.
I'm proud of my section. I'm grateful to my field assistants. And I'm both proud and honored to have taught the clarinets. Most sections have had power struggles, had petty fights, or worse; yet again, the clarinets have shown themselves to be a family.
The only matter which gives me pause is my role in the band - that is, fulfilling the duties of section leader. It still seems strange to me that I went from an unenthusiastic, awkward freshman who wanted to quit band to section leader. I just hope that I did what I needed to in teaching and leading the section. If the section felt productive, had a good time, and experienced growth, then I'll know I was successful. My greatest legacy is the attitudes and skills of the clarinets.
This season was perfect.
So begins the end. While there's still much ahead of BHSME, this
was (whether or not I recognize it now) my (and others') last field show. It will be a bit depressing to see it all go, but as I said earlier: I am content.